[dropcap style=”font-size: 60px; color: #9b9b9b;”] L [/dropcap]ife has been busy. Nothing new. But something new has recently kicked in . . . contentment. Wowzers. When and how did that happen?
This past weekend, we had a series of big things to accomplish. The first being to apply for Ezra’s passport as our trip to the UK is quickly approaching. We have continually put this off due to the cost, but we finally needed to suck it up and do it before it was too late. So we drove to Lafayette on Saturday morning (the only place that allowed walk-ins on a Saturday) and turned in our application and money. Ezra did not cooperate for the pictures, so we had to settle for one of him crying, drooling, and barely able to last one minute without sucking his thumb. It’s definitely a photo for the memory box. 🙂 It was a great relief to walk out of the post office and feel like something big was finally crossed off our to do list.
We then had to rush down to Denver to get our highly anticipated family photos taken. We had won a photography session with a photographer that I have known for a long time. I was nervous about how we’d all do, especially Ezra, but it turned out to be quite an enjoyable experience. It was super hot that day, but the photographer picked a location with lots of shade, which made it bearable. She also picked a beautiful location; one we’d like to explore on a future Saturday. And surprisingly, Ryder turned out to be quite the model, so I think we’ll be receiving many photos of him. What a corker he is, our first born. We have no family photos in our house, so it’ll be such a joy to finally hang some pictures on our walls.
And while we were in South Denver, we had to return a train set to Ikea that we had bought for Ryder’s birthday as we had found a giant train table and set for very cheap on Craigslist. Fortunately for us, the family that had the giant train set lived right near Ikea. So we then drove over to pick up the train set. We were hoping that it would be in as good of condition as it sounded like from the craigslist ad, and sure enough, it was. The family was very gracious, helped to load it up in the truck, chatted with us about being half-English while they were half- Australian, etc. All the while, Mark and I were marveling at the fact that they could have sold the train set for 4 or 5 times the amount that they were asking. Yet they didn’t. And because of that, we got mega-blessed. It was felt like one of those too good to be true moments in life.
So as we drove back home, we chatted about our day, how it was full of blessings, how we struggle, how God provides, how there’s always enough, how God always meets us right when we need it, etc. And as I thought about our day, I told Mark that I was content. I am content. I’m happy to be the mom of two boys. I’m happy with our little family. I don’t love where we live, and I have lots of dreams and desires that are unfulfilled. But regardless, I’m content. Those dreams and desires will come, but in the meantime, I’m going to flourish where I’m at. Mark commented on how this contentment is big for me. Really big. I think he was almost shocked to hear me say that I’m okay if we don’t have our girl. 🙂 I’m okay if we just have two boys or if we have more. I’m okay either way. Thank the Lord for that as contentment has been very much needed in my life.
And as if our day couldn’t get any better, it did. We arrived home that evening with all of us hungry, hot, and tired. As we pulled up to the house, I hopped out to check the mail and saw an odd envelope with my name on it. While Mark unloaded the boys, I opened it and was shocked to see the contents – a very large refund check from our former mortgage company. I was torn between laughing and crying as we’ve had so many bills over the past few months. I’ve daily presented our needs to the Lord and daily told Him how thankful I am that He knows what we need as it’s been too much for me to carry. Lo and behold, He answered. It felt beyond too good to be true. I called both the former lender and our new lender to make sure that the money really was ours to keep. And finally, one of the lenders told me to just go spend it on my babies! 🙂 I chuckled at that, but I got the point. It really is ours. So God provided, again, right when we needed it. And not only that, but we had such a frustrating, expensive refinancing process that to see a refund check come made the whole process seem like it wasn’t for nothing. Like it redeemed all of it, and that is such a good feeling!
Our weekend ended with my family coming over on Sunday night to see Ryder receive his train table/set as it was really their birthday gift to him. Mark rearranged his room and set the table up while I played outside with him. Then the family waited in his room until he and I came in. The expression on his face and the “whoa!!” exclamation he made (and Ezzy too) was exactly how I’ve felt this weekend with all of our blessings. And I realized too that God loves those moments as much as we do. He loves seeing His kids get a big blessing as much as we love seeing our kids get big surprises. It blesses His heart. 🙂
So in conclusion, my heart is so full. I’m blessed, humbled, and convicted at how much more I need to trust the Lord. I know how dependent we are on Him, and why would He not take care of us? Why would He not take care of His kids. Trusting Him really works. Realizing our need for Him and resting in His great love is exactly where He wants us. So I’m staying put. Staying in His care. Thankful more than ever for His great love and great faithfulness.