So after a blog full of jibberish yesterday, I hope some of you are still with me today. 😉
The preacher in me is rising up right now, and so I need to let her out and preach at myself a bit.
A few years ago, I was a newlywed with a lot of time on my hands, living in a foreign country, and coping with hour after endless hour of free time while my truck driver husband was gone for 15 hours or more a day. Kind of lonely. To say that I had a lot of time to myself would be an understatement. Thankfully, myself and I get along on most days. However, I was having a day of just being a bit frustrated, feeling very out in the desert, very dry, and just ugh. I felt like (notice “felt like”) even my closest friend, the Lord, was far away. And all of a sudden, as I was sitting in the library doing whatever to take up the time, I got the revelation that what you put in is what you get out.
And most older Christians, like myself, would say well, duh. Hello that’s basic. But no, it really hit me. I can pray and say, “oh Lord, help me as I have no friends, no job, no money, no joy, no nothing, please deliver me!” And God will hear me, but if I just sit in the library by myself, that’s all that’s going to happen. Or I can pray and beg and plead and say “God, I need deliverance in this area or I need this or want that and why is not happening?!” But again, I just sit around in my room and wait; then what do I expect? It’s like being a single lady who wants to get married and yet just sits and reads her book at Starbucks and hopes that a cute, on fire, Christian man will spot her and be struck with love at first sight. He’ll then go over to her, comment about her book, and they’ll be together forever after. Yeah, it’s a nice fantasy, but is it likely to be reality? Maybe for one person in a million . . . maybe. But is it really likely to be reality? Maybe not so much.
At that moment in the Shrewsbury library (where Charles Darwin went to school – random fact of the day), I realized that I can only pray so much. At some point, action has to take place. And the first step of action is to get my head in the Word.
This verse has been popping up all over the place lately – from Romans 12:
1 I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service. 2 And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.
The transformation of our lives happens first when our minds are renewed. And I know that I did not take this verse seriously enough for much of my life. I read the Word daily because I should. But I never truly considered the outcome of it. I never truly considered that if I dove into it my life would be radically changed. I never considered that how much time I put into the Word is how much of God and His blessings I’m going to get out. I just thought that having Jesus would bring the abundant life, and yes, it does. But there’s so much more. There’s an abundant life that we haven’t imagined, haven’t even tapped into. And that comes from spending time with Him.
My marriage to Mark is so much better when we share life together. When we just live our busy, hectic, here, there, and everywhere life like roommates, then it’s not so much fun. But when we talk, laugh, cry, eat, sleep, and do life together, it’s so much better. And it’s so much the same with our Father.
Yesterday, I had the realization that if we were desperate for something, we would put all of our time and energy into getting that thing. Here I’ve struggled with health issues and junk from the devil this year, and yet it’s not until I’ve dug into to find out what God says about these things, that the junk has died down. Not that the junk isn’t there, but it’s not consuming me, not worrying me, not taking up my time like it was before. He’s now taking up my time; He’s consuming me. And life is so much better because of it. 🙂