[dropcap style=”font-size: 60px; color: #9b9b9b;”] N[/dropcap]ot sure what it is this morning, but I woke up preaching in my head. I also woke up with this song in my head, specifically these lyrics:

My hope is built on nothing less
than Jesus’ blood and righteousness
I dare not trust the sweetest frame
but wholly trust in Jesus’ name

Christ alone, Cornerstone
Weak made strong, in the Savior’s love
Through the storm
He is Lord, Lord of All

Then He shall come with trumpets sound
Oh, may I then in Him be found
Dressed in His righteousness alone
faultless, stand before the throne

Cornerstone by Hillsong

A few months back, I was asked to fill in as a teacher for our Healing Room ministry at church. I debated for a while before I gave an answer, and once I quit debating in my head and just submitted it to the Lord, I knew I should say yes. However, I’m no expert on the topic of healing. Matter of fact, I spent 3 weeks in India at several crusade meetings as part of a team that prayed for hundreds of terribly sick people, and I didn’t see one person healed. Talk about deflating . . . I left India feeling majorly challenged in my faith. And not only that, but I’m not the greatest teacher, so I’ve had major trepidation as the weeks are quickly passing. What if someone comes to the healing room and they have a terminal disease? What if they ask me why they haven’t been healed? What if, what if, what if? So as I was praying this morning, I had two thoughts: 1.) God asks us to believe His Word. Simple as that. 2.) We’re to keep our eyes on Him. He is Jehovah Rapha (our Healer). Christ carried our sickness and disease on the cross. They died there with Him. If we study the Word, we will see that Jesus never turned anyone away when they approached Him for healing. And the person whose faith amazed (Matthew says that Jesus “marveled”) Him was the Centurion who recognized the authority that Jesus carried (authority over sickness) and who knew that Jesus just had to say the Word and his servant would be healed (See Matthew 8). Simply put – faith pleases God.

Then this song started playing in my head over and over, and as I’ve listened to it all morning, the line that keeps hitting me is “dressed in His righteousness alone, faultless to stand before the throne.” And so my thoughts have proceeded along these lines, and please bear with me as I (not so gracefully) work them out . . .

Throughout the duration of this pregnancy, as we’ve constantly received reports saying that Baby is too little, she’s not measuring right, she seems to have this or that, and I’m high risk for pre-eclampsia, high risk due to my age, high risk due to how poor my stomach muscles are, and high risk due to complications from the previous pregnancies. Yet every time I get into my hiding place with Him and say “but God, what do You say?” He says she is perfectly and wonderfully made. He says that she and I don’t lack any good thing. He says trust me!! He says that He loves this girl and He loves me. I have to keep my eyes on Him. Have to. If I give in to any doctor report, then I get overwhelmed with fear and worry. He says to fear not. He says it was all taken care of on the cross. Because I am in Christ, I am a co-inheritor with Christ. When I pray and put my petitions before God, it’s as if Christ is praying in my stead. That is my righteousness, my right standing IN HIM. But I have to take that place of choosing to stand in Him. If I choose to stand in fear and worry, then guess who gets to play around? Guess who gets to bring his attacks and try to have his way with my babe? So who is responsible for putting on her shield of faith, her breastplate of righteousness, and belt of truth? Who has to resist the fiery darts of the enemy? My innocent child in the womb can’t do it. As her guardian and carrier, I have to do it.

And so yesterday morning as I drove into the midwives’ office, I said God, I choose to believe You and I choose to receive Your report. I thank You that I will get a good report today. And sure enough, baby’s measurements were so much better than two weeks ago; therefore, no ultrasounds were needed. Her position is great, her heartbeat is strong, and all of my protein levels, blood pressure, weight, etc. are perfect. Yes, God!!

So as I put together my scriptures and some kind of structure on what I will say on healing, all I know is this: No matter what, we are to put our eyes on Jesus. Every distraction, every lie, every sickness, and every doctor report is something for the enemy to get our eyes focused on, instead of putting them where they should be – Jesus. In the Old Testament (Numbers 21:8) when the Israelites had been infested with snakes and were dying due to bites, Moses was told to put a snake up on a pole for the people to look at. God said that they were to put their eyes on it and they would be healed. Those who didn’t, were not healed. That was a type of Christ and what was to come. We’re to put our eyes on Christ and what He has done for us.

And to answer the what if questions . . . If we go to heaven believing that He is our Healer, yet die of some ailment, at least we believed His Word!! At the very least, He will say, that was awesome! You had so much faith in me, You honored me, and You trusted me. Then He can explain the rest, but at least we were obedient to do what His Word instructed us. Yet that’s the very least . . . the best would be that we put our faith, our trust, our hope in Him, and He works His perfect will, which is to give us abundant life, including healing, and we walk away with a tremendous testimony of who He is. Plus, we would arrive into heaven with this:

And I heard a loud voice saying in heaven, Now is come salvation, and strength, and the kingdom of our God, and the power of his Christ: for the accuser of our brothers is cast down, which accused them before our God day and night. And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives to the death.  Revelation 12:10 & 11

I may totally flub up my 20 minute slot of teaching on healing, or I may just encourage someone to believe God. Take Him at His Word, not at what doctrine you/they’ve been taught, not at what experience you’re having or have had, or what reports you’re receiving, but simply at His Word. If I’ve learned anything in the Christian walk, it’s the importance of just saying yes, God, I put my trust in Jesus and I choose to look at Him. It’s not only worth trying, but it’s what we’re told to do.

Anyway, just some thoughts to think on . . .

**attached photo was found on google images – source being achangers.blogspot.com

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  1. Well said, my friend! I love reading your blogs Miss Micah! You have an excellent writing gift from God, just like your father. You are a blessing, sweet sister! God bless you and little Eden Bella with great health and an easy birth, in Jesus name! You are loved….

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