becoming a warrior princess

As my husband left for work, he commented on our daughter’s new love of Tinkerbell and how cool the new Tinkerbell movies are. My immediate response was “I know, because Tinkerbell is now like a warrior princess and I am totally okay with our daughter being a warrior princess.” And in my mind I was actually picturing Eowyn from Lord of the Rings, and I have found myself thinking about her a lot lately. But I will come back to that as I haven’t posted a blog in a while and need to backtrack a bit . . . Read more

my thoughts

Have to say that I have had my share of bad news and difficulties when it comes to setting up a Bible school in a foreign country, trying to move our family there, and attempting to get visas for 5 others. It’s been tough!! And I’ve been working on all of this for a year! Seems unreal, and if I were judging myself on how well it’s gone, I’d get a big fat F for failure. Not to mention that I’ve had to explain our situation a thousand times, answers a zillion immigration questions, and basically tell people who know nothing about setting up a school or immigrating anywhere what it’s like. Most people try to be very helpful, but it’s like a city person trying to tell a farmer how to farm. It doesn’t work, and so all I can say is that we’re doing our best. We’re learning as best as we can. And it’s hard. Simple as that. Hard. And if I dwelt there for long, I’d be real ugly. Read more

His plans

Jeremiah 29:11 NLT
“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”

I haven’t written for quite some time . . . mainly because I don’t know what to say. We applied for my spouse visa over a month ago, and we received notice that the UK immigration office received it. But we haven’t heard anything since. So we’ve sat and waited. And truthfully, it’s really been a waiting period where I’ve had to work at keeping my heart right. Read more

He directs our steps

We attempted a last minute family vacation this past weekend. The goal was to allow Mark and the kids a chance to see more of the US before we move. I had never seen Mt. Rushmore, and it seemed like a bearable trip to make with three children under 5 and one dog. Little did we know . . . we ended up having tire problems when we hit Cheyenne, which resulted in a long wait at a tire shop, which then took our whole first day of our vacation. That was followed by the dog escaping from our hotel and over a big, busy road and highway. I won’t even go into all the emotions, wailing, sobbing, searching, praying, and all in the pouring rain as we drove all around town trying to find Zoya. Praise the Lord someone did get her and called us immediately. That was one of the worst mornings of our lives. Then the rest of the second day was spent in floodlike conditions and tantrums from little ones. Finally, on our last day, we got to have some fun in Bear Country, got to see Mt. Rushmore, and got to see real, free ranging buffalo!! That was such a highlight. It was then followed by getting lost in South Dakota and having a very long drive home. So our vacation was a bust. Never again will we do a road trip with a toddler and a dog. But thankfully, I did learn several things, and I realized this – Read more

trusting and waiting

Over the past 10 days, we’ve waited and waited, got what we thought was a “GO!” and started planning, and then got a big “STOP.” And now, it feels like we’re just sitting as we don’t know what the next step is. And I’m not going to bore everyone with immigration details. I’m so tired of reading immigration rules, emailing lawyers, and thinking through options. I feel like my brain just needs to do something completely thoughtless and monotonous for about 3 days. And I know we just have to trust God and wait. He will make a way, even when it feels very dark and overwhelming. Read more

walking in obedience

I don’t really know how to get out what’s on my heart, but we’ll at least give it a shot.

Over the past two weeks, I have spent most of my time teaching at the Bible school (or preparing my notes) and checking off a million to do items. I have had so much going on that I have felt like I’m just doing well to keep the balls in the air; there’s not been any focus on trying to juggle well or even proficiently. And Mark has pointed out twice now that the more I just let go and trust God the better things turn out. He’s right. The older I get the more I leave behind my goal of perfection and choose to head for rest instead. Specifically, resting in Him, knowing that I cannot do anything without His help and strength. If I’ve learned anything over the past several months, it’s how much I need to dwell in the Secret Place of the Most High God. I cannot be a good wife, a good mom, a teacher, or anything without Him. It’s like this shifting is happening in how I operate, and my heart’s cry of more of Him and far less of me is now happening. Read more

our God reigns

The last two weeks have been so full. I’m teaching my last class for the school year at the Bible school, and as busy as we are, I knew I needed to teach this class. I’ve dove into studying authority, submission, humility, and servanthood, and it’s been so good. I’ve loved studying the Old Testament, and I’ve felt like God has been speaking to my situation through this class. So it’s been ace (as my British husband used to say). One of the other pluses of being at the Bible school is getting to start the day in worship with other believers; I love that part of my day. I feel like that has really helped me to keep my mind on where it should be right now; rather on all that it could be. Read more

moving forward

The past week has just been a weird one. Very tiring, emotionally exhausting, physically overwhelming, and mentally challenging. I started out last Monday with an early morning ultrasound on my aorta and blood vessel leading to the aorta, followed by a photographer coming to take pictures of the house, followed by our normal jobs + responsibilities and the final big cleaning of the house. Then all the wild stuff happened in Longmont, and my heart grieved for those involved. Then Friday night we moved to my parents’ house until Sunday night. We spent most of the weekend dealing with requests for showings, feedback on the showings, and trying to figure out what price/bid would be best for our timeframe. Exhausting to say the least. We countered an offer late last night, and I got very little sleep after. Read more

hope

Psalm 27:13-14 NKJV
I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the Lord
In the land of the living.
Wait on the Lord;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the Lord!

Over the past few weeks as we’ve gotten rid of so many of our belongings and as we’ve painted, cleaned, sorted, and purged, I’ve gone through many memories of the past 7 years. Hard times, lonely times, moments with each of the kids as babies, conversations with Mark, prayers that I prayed, laughter, family dinners, walks through our neighborhood, etc. Read more

grace

I’m finding it hard to get time to process my thoughts lately, but I really want to as I know I’ll want to look back on this time and see the things that I learned. So here goes . . .

We’re in the midst of selling our house, getting rid of EVERYTHING, working two jobs each, and Mark is studying to take a certification that will add to his resume while I’m getting ready to teach another class. Both boys are in the last two months of school, and Eden is just a full blown toddler. Trying to prepare a house to sell while living with 3 kids under 5 and 1 dog is like trying to keep a zoo clean. Oy!! Read more