So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life – your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life – and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.
Romans 12:1-2 MSG
After getting filled up and listening to three days of teaching on surrender, identity, sonship, and seeking the Father and letting Him order our steps, we quickly got a chance to put it all into practice. Yesterday afternoon, I got a message from Mark saying that rumors were flying at work and a very big meeting had been scheduled for this morning. A meeting in which everyone had to be there, whether they were scheduled to work today or not. In the past, this has always been the time of year for lay offs, and thanks to all the changes that are happening with Obamacare, hospitals are in major transition right now. So automatically, Mark’s co-workers were fearing the worst. He works in an office full of women, and there were many tears as the women discussed what they thought was happening. It actually opened the door for Mark to pray with some of them as they fought off fear. When he got home, we discussed what could be happening and how it would affect us. And truthfully, we both felt great peace; we felt more concern for our co-workers rather than ourselves because we know Who cares for us.
So fast forward to this morning and Mark calling me as soon as the big meeting was over. Come to find out the hospital has been bought out, and his office would be closing. But here’s the amazing thing – they don’t plan on any lay offs until JUNE!!! June has been our target date for when we thought we would make our move. Yet we know that we make our plans and God directs our steps. So June has always been a best guess date, and who knows, it could still be our best guess. But it greatly changes things now that we know that Mark’s office will begin the process of closing. In a way, it feels like it just sealed the deal for us. It eliminated any plan B that we may have had in the back of our minds. It completely removed any security net that we thought we had. And really, it just releases us to run forward.
It’s funny too because over the past few months I’ve so loved the schools that our kids are in, and I’ve just tried to slow time down and really enjoy today. I’ve even had the thought that if God called us to move prior to May/June I’m not sure I could do it. Then I surrendered that thought earlier this week; I also surrendered the June timeframe as we have so much to do before then. I just put it all in God’s hands. And then today, it felt like God just put a stamp of approval on it and said okay, June it is! And not only that, but He knows that we need Mark’s job until we sell this house. In reality, we need his job until he gets on that airplane. So of all the timing that could have happened, I feel like this has been orchestrated by Him and He’s showing me that He is directing. He’s got it!!
And sure things could change so much between now and then, but for right now, I needed to see God’s hand of confirmation. I’ve had so many moments of “what are we doing? We’re uprooting our whole family, making a huge transition, having to raise so much money, leaving great schools, and leaving our family!! Are we insane?!” And when I get out of my head and into my quiet time, I feel so much peace. I know that we’re doing the right thing, but it’s not easy. My heart is fully torn. Yet we have to pursue this; we have to give Him our full yes and surrender it all. All to Jesus I surrender . . . so here we go FOR REAL. Get ready, get set, and go, because we are running our race!