[dropcap style=”font-size: 60px; color: #9b9b9b;”] I [/dropcap] just have to say that the hardest part of motherhood is living in constant noisy chaos with a never ending to do list. I’m realizing that as an introvert it’s vital for me to get a little peace and quiet to get the house clean, bills paid, and emotional refocus. Between working and being a mom, I have very little time to do anything else besides those two things. I feel like it’s nearly impossible to clean my house right now as one of my two kids is always wanting to eat or be held. They rarely nap at the same time, and they’re both into making tiger, pirate, screaming, yelling noises while running and jumping. I realize this is very much boy behavior, but it’s exhausting. It’s starting to get to me. Not to mention the fact that the oldest boy is very much into climbing while the youngest is literally into everything. Ezra is always found climbing into the dog bowl, thumbing through the books from the bookshelf, or pulling toilet paper off the roll. And dinner time has become a near impossibility as they’re both crying, fighting, and bugging Zoya while I’m attempting to cook and not pull my hair out. By the time Mark gets home at 7pm we’re all unhappy campers. It’s not been a good month for us so far . . . Lord, help us. I knew this was coming as Ezra started walking, but I neglected to consider how I would get my time to regroup. I think it’s time I figured that out.