[dropcap style=”font-size: 60px; color: #9b9b9b;”] M [/dropcap]y boys have been big into singing lately. My youngest son loves to sing, and my oldest is learning lots of new songs at school. So all day long, I hear the ABC’s and Itsy Bitsy Spider being sung. I’ve been trying to teach them the songs that I learned as a kid, but I’m having a hard time with the words! So I sing my own versions of “obedience is the very best way to show that you believe . . . ” and “trust in God, trust in God.” I hope they’re getting the subtle messages from the words too, but really, they’ve been reminding me of what I need to do as well.
And after my last post, I’ve been reminded to just trust God and to obey. Do what He’s told us to do in our day to day lives, trust Him, and watch as the wisdom, direction, and guidance come in. So that’s the plan.
I do have one area that has been a lifelong desire that I know I do need to step out in, and it involves writing and doing a lot of research. It may be a project that takes me a year to complete or maybe 5 years; it may be something that no one ever buys or reads. Or it may hit the target audience and do exactly what it’s suppose to. I have no idea, but I do know that I need to step out and give it a go. And according to my husband, this is the one thing that I absolutely need to start and finish. So, Lord, help me as starting and finishing things are not my strong point. But I will feel lots of regret if I never do it, so there is no time like the present.
Lastly, as we all bundled up and herded into the mini-van this morning (even Zoya as she hopped in while all the doors were open and there was no time to get her out), I passed out cheddar bunnies, stuck the baby’s bottle in her car seat so that we could feed her on the go, and thought to myself this is our life. We make do with what we’ve got; we don’t sweat the small stuff. And cheddar bunnies at 8am are not the end of the world. Mark has been working diligently on time management, making time to get some much needed writing projects going, and going with the flow as far as rides to and from work are concerned. And he’s kept a fantastic attitude, even on the nights when his head doesn’t hit the pillow till 1:30am. I have hit the limit as far as exhaustion goes, so I’ve been sleeping as much as I can, which means the floors are filthy, the laundry is piled high, and everything needs to be cleaned. But I’ll do what I can when I can. I’m not losing my mind or my peace over it anymore. A tired mommy makes for a miserable family, so we’re not doing that anymore either. And I’m learning from my sweet husband’s example and working on my attitude while also making time for some projects that I know I want/should/need to do. Trusting God with all the rest and singing the ABC’s multiple times a day while remembering that God’s got it and my kids are happy and healthy. That’s how we’re rollin’.
And very lastly, how could joy not flow when we all wake up and get to see this sweet face looking at us . . . all four of us are so blessed by this baby girl. We LOVE her. She truly fulfills her name as she brings so much delight and beauty into our lives. Every time I look at her I feel like I get a kiss from God and hear Him say, “see, I love giving beautiful gifts.” I’m so thankful for Him and for her.