Do any of you remember that old 50s/60s song? Or is this really aging me as “younger” people never listened to the music of their parents’ era? The song goes on about tossing and turning all night, and it is very appropriate as that is what my husband did last night. He finally got so frustrated that he did one big turn and threw his blankets off, and it scared me so much that it startled me out of my dazed, semi-sleep mode. (I think we both tend to be a hair dramatic at times, especially in the wee hours of the morning . . . 😉 He eventually moved to the couch in order to toss and turn without disturbing the wife. When you share a full size bed, tossing is not helpful to the spouse. Not that it mattered, because I haven’t fully slept for about a month now. Not fun . . . and I can’t blame in on Ryde either.
As much as I hate to admit it, the culprit of our not sleeping is a racing mind. It helps to not read novels regarding the Holocaust or terrorists before bed time. But it also helps to cast your cares on Jesus. A racing mind is usually an anxious mind or a planning mind. And I can’t speak for Mark, but I can speak for myself and say that I’ve definitely had some anxiety this month. We’ve been believing for a major breakthrough, answer to prayer, miracle, whatever you want to call it, and yesterday, we got something that we never expected at all. I told Mark that it’s kind of like the situation of a single person praying and praying for a spouse, and all of the sudden, that person gets a marriage proposal. It’s not a bad proposal at all. In some ways, it’s a very good one. But it’s not the proposal that the single person was really believing for. Do you know what I mean? It’s not what the girl really desired. And so now she has a situation of wondering if she should accept the very good proposal or wait for the best. But she could be waiting a while, or maybe this one really is the best even though it doesn’t look like it . . . or that’s what fear would say at least.
So . . . I don’t really know where I’m going with this except that we’re still waiting. And I was reminded of this verse that I learned a long time ago –
Isaiah 26:3 (New King James Version)
You will keep him in perfect peace, Whose mind is stayed on You, Because he trusts in You.
It’s all about Him and keeping our eyes on Him. He gives His beloved sleep, but I think it helps if we also stay in peace. 🙂