[dropcap style=”font-size: 60px; color: #9b9b9b;”] W [/dropcap]hen I was little, I thought the most wondrous thing would be to grow up and be a backup singer. If I could sing with Whitney Houston, wouldn’t that be fabulous . . . ? Yeah, except I don’t really sing that well. And I was smart enough to realize it, so that was a dream for another life . . .

I don’t know what’s happening in life right now, but these past few weeks have been flat out hard. Feeling very much like they’ve been the pitts. And I haven’t done so well in keeping a good attitude. I’ve spent a lot of time wrestling with what I should do vs. what I want to do. How I want to feel vs. what is really the right attitude. How I want out of this situation and that situation and don’t want to have a good attitude, yet I want to please Him. So I have to choose a good attitude. I have to find joy in the midst of struggle. It’s been a few weeks of an internal battle. Not to mention that I’m finding it quite hard to get any peace and quiet time. Life is too hectic, my kids are toddlers/preschoolers, and my plate is too full. But such is life. So let’s get on with it.

And I know it’s all about my heart. It’s all about bowing my heart, letting the Lord do His refining in me, submitting to Him. But it’s hard. My flesh is a whiner!! I don’t like my circumstances! And I want to take control and change them, but I’m not in control. So all I can do is take it one day at a time. One moment of choosing the right attitude at a time. It’s the process of yielding as much as I can. It’s no fun. But the end result will be good. That’s the only thing that keeps me going . . . realizing that the more I yield, the better it will be. Glorifying Him as much as possible is the best decision I can make.

So a friend of mine posted this song on her facebook, and after listening to it, I decided it suited this time as a few of the lyrics speak my heart’s cry. I’m going to attach the link to the song, and then just post a few of the lyrics that my heart is singing over and over. And that little girl in me who dreamed of being Whitney Houston’s backup singer . . . this song greatly resonates with her.

So just let me shadow you, just let me trace your lines
Matter of fact, just take my pen, here, You create my rhymes

I’m in control of nothing, follow You at any cost
Some call it sovereign will, all I know is you the boss
And man, I’m so at ease, I’m so content
I’ll play the background, like it’s an instrument

I could play the background
I could play the background
‘Cause I know sometimes I get in the way
So won’t You take the lead, lead, lead?
So won’t You take the lead, lead, lead?
And I could play the background, background
And you could take the lead

I know I’m safest when I’m in Your will, and trust Your Word
I know I’m dangerous when I trust myself, my vision blurred
And I ain’t got no time to play life’s foolish games
Got plenty aims, but do they really Glorify Your name?
And it’s a shame, the way I want to do these things for You, yeah
Don’t even cling to you, take time to sit and glean from You
It seems like You were patient in my ignorance
If ignorance is bliss, it’s ’cause she never heard of this

I could play the background
I could play the background
‘Cause I know sometimes I get in the way
So won’t You take the lead, lead, lead?
So won’t You take the lead, lead, lead?
And I could play the background, background
And you could take the lead

2 thoughts on “I can play the background

  1. I used to want to be a back-up singer, too. We have the ridiculous picture of me singing into a jump rope handle to prove it. Glad you are being stretched, even if it is difficult. A year from now, a month from now, a week from now, a day from now you will not be the same as you were…yesterday. 😉 Blessings…

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