I missed this week’s posting on Monday due to going to the dentist, and since then, I’ve just been majorly overwhelmed. I realize that moving is in the top five of most stressful events in life, so moving overseas is expected to be a bit stressful. And when you work in the accounting field, the first few months of the year are always stressful at work. And I work two jobs, taught two classes at the Bible school, and am working on immigration. Cry me a river . . . I know. So moving on . . .

I’m realizing that in this point of where we’re at with everything it’s going to be a lot of putting one foot in the other, trusting God, and just staying at peace no matter how it’s looking or feeling. And that is so much easier said than done. I got to work yesterday morning feeling totally out of sorts with a far too big to do list, and it just hit me that I have to let some things go. I have to deactivate facebook for a while, delete twitter, put down the things that I’d rather be wasting time on, and instead get intentional. I can’t delay the things that are priority. I can’t procrastinate right now, and yet, I do have to make time for rest. I do have to say, “hey, I’ve been with an 18 month old today at both jobs, we’ve hit the grocery store, both schools, and I’m up to my ears in feeling all over the place. Could I please have an hour to hit the coffee shop by myself so that I can have my quiet time?” My time with Him can’t be shoved aside anymore. And along with that, my time with my husband, my time with each child, and my time to get specific things done all have to be fitted into a schedule. I have to make time to get things done.

So along with purging the house, I’m purging my life and my schedule. Again, it’s easier said than done. Yet if we’re going to get where we’re headed, then it has to be done.

And lastly, I’ve also got to make some time to really figure out a way to fundraise; how many times have I said that in this blog?! We’ve only raised less than a third of the figure we need to even get to Edinburgh. So we’re barely inching along. And I know God has this, but I also know that I need to listen and be obedient to do what He directs us to do in this area. If I put it off, delay, procrastinate, then we’ll be waving goodbye to our team as they board their plane while we’re still here raising funds. That’s not what we want.

This is quite a dry, not fun post, but it’s where I’m at. Thank you for reading, thank you for praying for us, and thank you for being a part of our little community. We appreciate it very much.

2 thoughts on “holding onto Him

  1. Hi Micah,

    I just read your post. I would like to encourage you to continue to hold on to hope and faith. I have no doubt that you are already doing that. After reading this post. I felt sad and discouraged. We all go through this when we are overwhelmed and worn out. The reality is that you are running on fumes. Your tired and worn out. My dear, you have so much to do and not enough time to get everything done. You need a miracle.

    I will be praying for your miracle. I will also pray for peace of mind.

    When do you need to by your airline tickets? At this point it all depends if Mark is going alone. I sure hope that is not an option.

    Thanks for sharing and being truthful with your how you are feeling this week. This is exactly why we need the body of Christ to lift us up.

    Love You,
    Eleanor

    1. Thank you, Eleanor, for praying. We so appreciate it!! My hope is back up today, but the past week has been hard as we are climbing a mountain. We’re not sure when we’ll get airline tickets; hopefully by May? We’re narrowing down our lawyer choices now, then hope to soon have an answer on if Mark needs to go before us. We’re praying he doesn’t have to! Thank you for your encouragement; it helps a ton!
      Love,
      Micah

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