It’s been a long weekend . . . we need a weekend to recover from it. Like a full, non-working weekend is desperately needed. This weekend was filled with getting our phone situation sorted, massive yardwork, grocery shopping, cleaning jobs, church, and more yardwork (as Zoya undid all of the planting that we did the day before. GRRRRRR!!!). Can we say TIRED!!
I’m telling you all of that as I have to brag on my husband a little, because I really don’t talk about him enough. Mark’s been writing again, and most nights, he’s been up until midnight, 2am, 1am, etc. He then gets up at 7am to get to work by 8am. He goes to Bible school on Monday nights, and he does 4 hours of cleaning on Sunday afternoons. He also helps to watch the boys for me on Wednesday and Thursday mornings so that I can get to work by 8am. He works until 7pm most nights and comes home in time to bathe the boys and get them into bed. He works hard, so to say that he’s writing again is big. He’s sacrificing sleep in order to get something written and sold so that we can move forward and get debt paid off. He’s a good man to say the least. But even more than that, he NEVER grumbles, never complains, and is always quick to say that he’s sorry if he snaps out of exhaustion. I daily grumble, get irritated, say I’m tired, etc. He doesn’t. I admire him greatly for that. And I know that it’s because he’s allowing the Lord to rule and reign in his life. I’m so thankful to be married to a man who submits to his Lord and Savior.
My daily prayer is that God would give my husband rest. We’ve been working hard since since the day we met. We’ve always got financial mountains looming ahead of us, but more than that, we’ve got dreams and visions to fulfill. Yet it seems that bills are always bogging us down. Something’s always breaking, something seems to be in constant need of repair, and as hard as we work to make sure we don’t acquire new debt, things are always coming up. God provides for each one as they come, so we have not accumulated new debt. Yet our faith just keeps growing as obstacles keep coming up. Tiredness pulls at us constantly. And I know that it won’t be this way forever. I know God’s got blessing and freedom ahead. It’s just a step by step process. And I know that as we’re faithful, He’s even more faithful. He provides daily strength always.
As Mark and I sat drinking a coffee before our cleaning jobs, we dreamt a little, talked about some future options, and said, well, this needs to happen, this needs to happen, and this needs to happen if we’re to ever do this. If our circumstances were different, we wouldn’t hesitate to do this or that, but they’re not. And yet it wasn’t dicouraging. It was just left in God’s hands. If God desires this for us, then He’ll make a way. If these dreams and desires are God-birthed, God-breathed, then He’ll finish them. We’re being faithful to get there, and we trust Him. So we keep on keeping on. That’s all we can do for now. Yet it’s so nice to just simply trust and wait. We’re in such a different place than we were last year, and it’s all because of HIM!! All due to His glory and honor as He is faithful.
So as tired as we are, as much as we yearn for a break, we’re in the palm of His hand. 🙂