Life as a parent is interesting to say the least . . . Mark and I don’t really get time to chat until Ryde has been fed, bathed, put to bed and our dinner has been made. So that leaves us the hours of 8pm to 11pm (on a good night) to get caught up with each other and to do everything that we couldn’t do while Ryde was awake. Basically, there’s not been much Mark/Micah time going on lately. The other night, right as we were falling asleep, I asked Mark how he was doing. How he was really doing. And long story short, we both agreed that this has been the most challenging year yet. That’s saying a lot for us. The two of us have been through a lot of challenges as a couple, but for many reasons, 2010 has been emotionally, spiritually, physically, financially challenging.
Yet the good part of that is that we’ve both dug our heels in and have really pressed in to the Lord. So our challenges have brought a lot of growth. My view on life is much different now than it was on January 1st. I’m thankful for that. Yet we’ve still got mountains to climb, decisions to make, and a lot to trust God for.
So as I was driving to work and pondering a lot of things, I started to get overwhelmed by all of it. And then I stopped and reminded myself that everything is step by step. Don’t try to figure out where life will be in December; we’re not in December. Don’t try to make a bunch of decisions all at one time; it’s too overwhelming. Prayerfully take each decision and each step one at a time. God will work it out.
One of my favorite scriture verses is Proverbs 16:9 –
The mind of a man plans his way, but the Lord directs His steps.
This always reminds me that it’s not a bad thing to be a planner; however, as we seek the Lord and allow Him to direct our steps, our plans may not happen like we think. And if we can just relax and let Him lead, life will be a lot less stressful. I’m very much a planner, and my husband is very much a one moment at a time type of guy. Needless to say, it causes a lot of conflict in our house as I push him to plan and he (along with the Holy Spirit) tells me to relax and smell the roses. 🙂 So I’ve been trying to take his advice. And it is hard, hard, HARD to not plan, but I will admit that I am enjoying how great the roses smell . . . yet I just need a hobby to keep me occupied so that I don’t plan . . . . 🙂