[dropcap style=”font-size: 60px; color: #9b9b9b;”] I [/dropcap] really can’t believe how quickly time is going by . . . so just a quick post on all the thoughts that are buzzing through my head:
Ryder has his last week of school this week. Sheesh louise. He’s bummed and excited; he loves going to school so he’s disappointed that it’s over. But he’s looking forward to summer (his birthday specifically). He’ll be returning to the same school in the fall, and I really hope that his favorite friends will return too! Ryde has learned so much and done so well; we’re so proud of him. He’s one of the youngest in class, yet he’s so smart and so very social. Preschool has been an excellent choice that we would not have chosen had I not been working. So thank the Lord for that.
Ezra also had his last week of going to work with Mommy. As of next week, I’ll start taking Tuesdays off to be with both the boys. I’m quite nervous about this change. I’ve never been home all day with them (sad, huh?), except for weekends. I have no idea how we’ll do with the cut in my pay; it’s actually quite scary for me to think about. God’s our Provider though. And my boys need a day where they don’t rush, don’t have to hear me saying, “guys, come on!! We’re going to be late!” They need a day to just hang out and relax with Mom. We need that together, especially before baby comes. So I’m trusting it’ll be a good change.
I’ve been feeling this great urge to get organized, to get focused, to get going in my purpose. This includes being a wife and mom, but I also want to focus on the things that I’m passionate about. I’ve all but lost my passion for everything, and as my husband will tell you, a passionless Micah is not a very nice one. So this will involve Bible study, lists, goals, and putting things into alignment in order to get where I feel like God wants me to go. I know that Mark is ready to do the same and needs to do the same in order to accomplish his lifelong goals. It feels like weird timing with the baby coming, but yet it also feels like perfect timing as we will need more structure/organization to get us through the adjustment of becoming a family of 5.
And interestingly enough, at the same time, I’m dropping off more of the “would’ve/should’ve/need to” kind of stuff. I have quit taking the boys out to do errands with me as they’re just too active and too much in their own worlds. It’s been far too stressful to take them to the grocery store or anywhere that’s not a park. Yet I had to make a trip to the store yesterday, and so I sucked it up and determined to not get stressed. We had to make two emergency potty breaks, the boys tipped the grocery cart over, and E smashed R’s face between a cart and water cooler. I held a crying 40 pound boy while trying to keep Ezra contained and while trying to pay for our items. Thankfully, we only met gracious, helping people yesterday, who were totally sympathetic. By the time I made it to the car, I was tired, but not stressed. It’s just life with little boys. And that dawns on me more and more; I’m the mom of two young, active children. I’m soon to add a third. Our life is loud, chaotic, and messy. I either stress about it, try to contain the noise and mess, or we set boundaries, do what we can, and just live with the rest. Life with kids is always changing, so we’ve got to go with it.
Lastly, thank the Lord for a three day weekend!! My tired body is greatly in need of some rest.
Hope you all are blessed and Happy Memorial Day weekend!