processing during adjustment

I’ve been trying to write a proper update/newsletter for weeks now, and every time I sit to type, I write a bunch of stuff out and then leave it. I just can’t seem to
process everything right now. Nor can I seem to write out what I’d really like to say. So I’ll just be perfectly honest and not worry about what you, the reader, may or may not think.
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an update

As our eighth month in the UK comes to a close, three things are clear: I need an office assistant, we are in a stretching season, and nothing is easy. Yet the one thing that overrides all of those is that God is good. We cling to His goodness always, and we’re learning more and more about Him and Who He is.

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6 months in . . .

I realize I need to post more updates about what we’re up to and how things are going, so this is less of a processing post and more of a status update:

January and February were incredibly busy for us as we visited churches, looked for a location for the school, met with pastors, finished the final round in immigration for our teammates, and tried to get our finances into some sort of order. We finally got into a groove with homeschooling, which was a big relief, but felt like we were all exhausted from our move, from being sick all winter, from our busyness, etc. So we took the only opportunity we had to go on vacation. Read more

busy and resting

I have no idea where the month of February is flying off to as it seems like the days are moving far more quickly than normal. And I’m trying to not let that scare me as we have so much going on and so much to do right now!! So this will be a bit of a news update as well as a processing post; please bear with me. Read more

my thoughts

Have to say that I have had my share of bad news and difficulties when it comes to setting up a Bible school in a foreign country, trying to move our family there, and attempting to get visas for 5 others. It’s been tough!! And I’ve been working on all of this for a year! Seems unreal, and if I were judging myself on how well it’s gone, I’d get a big fat F for failure. Not to mention that I’ve had to explain our situation a thousand times, answers a zillion immigration questions, and basically tell people who know nothing about setting up a school or immigrating anywhere what it’s like. Most people try to be very helpful, but it’s like a city person trying to tell a farmer how to farm. It doesn’t work, and so all I can say is that we’re doing our best. We’re learning as best as we can. And it’s hard. Simple as that. Hard. And if I dwelt there for long, I’d be real ugly. Read more

His plans

Jeremiah 29:11 NLT
“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”

I haven’t written for quite some time . . . mainly because I don’t know what to say. We applied for my spouse visa over a month ago, and we received notice that the UK immigration office received it. But we haven’t heard anything since. So we’ve sat and waited. And truthfully, it’s really been a waiting period where I’ve had to work at keeping my heart right. Read more

He directs our steps

We attempted a last minute family vacation this past weekend. The goal was to allow Mark and the kids a chance to see more of the US before we move. I had never seen Mt. Rushmore, and it seemed like a bearable trip to make with three children under 5 and one dog. Little did we know . . . we ended up having tire problems when we hit Cheyenne, which resulted in a long wait at a tire shop, which then took our whole first day of our vacation. That was followed by the dog escaping from our hotel and over a big, busy road and highway. I won’t even go into all the emotions, wailing, sobbing, searching, praying, and all in the pouring rain as we drove all around town trying to find Zoya. Praise the Lord someone did get her and called us immediately. That was one of the worst mornings of our lives. Then the rest of the second day was spent in floodlike conditions and tantrums from little ones. Finally, on our last day, we got to have some fun in Bear Country, got to see Mt. Rushmore, and got to see real, free ranging buffalo!! That was such a highlight. It was then followed by getting lost in South Dakota and having a very long drive home. So our vacation was a bust. Never again will we do a road trip with a toddler and a dog. But thankfully, I did learn several things, and I realized this – Read more

trusting and waiting

Over the past 10 days, we’ve waited and waited, got what we thought was a “GO!” and started planning, and then got a big “STOP.” And now, it feels like we’re just sitting as we don’t know what the next step is. And I’m not going to bore everyone with immigration details. I’m so tired of reading immigration rules, emailing lawyers, and thinking through options. I feel like my brain just needs to do something completely thoughtless and monotonous for about 3 days. And I know we just have to trust God and wait. He will make a way, even when it feels very dark and overwhelming. Read more

walking in obedience

I don’t really know how to get out what’s on my heart, but we’ll at least give it a shot.

Over the past two weeks, I have spent most of my time teaching at the Bible school (or preparing my notes) and checking off a million to do items. I have had so much going on that I have felt like I’m just doing well to keep the balls in the air; there’s not been any focus on trying to juggle well or even proficiently. And Mark has pointed out twice now that the more I just let go and trust God the better things turn out. He’s right. The older I get the more I leave behind my goal of perfection and choose to head for rest instead. Specifically, resting in Him, knowing that I cannot do anything without His help and strength. If I’ve learned anything over the past several months, it’s how much I need to dwell in the Secret Place of the Most High God. I cannot be a good wife, a good mom, a teacher, or anything without Him. It’s like this shifting is happening in how I operate, and my heart’s cry of more of Him and far less of me is now happening. Read more