[dropcap style=”font-size: 60px; color: #9b9b9b;”] I [/dropcap] love babies. I love the newborn days . . . well, minus the sleep deprivation, which is feeling fully miserable right now. I love the sweetness of newborns; love watching them make smiles, sighs, grunts, and frowns while they sleep. I love the cuddles and the staring up into your eyes as they feed. I love celebrating every first: the first smile, the first time they roll over (Eden already has!!), the first time they see a toy and grab it, the first word. I love all the simple celebrations of the things that come with a new life. I love the easiness of their simple, little lives. As difficult and full of complication as all of my children’s births were, I’d do it all again to have another newborn. Read more

Eden’s story

I was going to add a P.S. to this post, but I actually want to add a thought before anyone reads below –

As I read back through what I wrote below, I realized that I under emphasized how much God did during my labor and delivery of Eden. He kept me from the operating room, from a very hard, intense labor, from a c section, and any added complications from how Eden came through the birth canal. Plus, He kept her throughout the entire pregnancy. So this is really testimony of how much He did for my girl and for me. When I say that He is good ….really, He is mind blowingly magnificent. Really and truly good. Read more


[dropcap style=”font-size: 60px; color: #9b9b9b;”] S[/dropcap]o my husband wasn’t impressed with my self photo skills . . . I apologize for the lack of quality photography on this site; it’s just not in my skill set. And someday, I’ll have to explain to Baby why we have very few pictures of her in Mommy’s tummy . . . Read more

breastfeeding (a for mamas only post)

[dropcap style=”font-size: 60px; color: #9b9b9b;”] S[/dropcap]o I’ve been praying and thinking a lot about breastfeeding and if I will try it again, and this post has just been sitting in the queue as I wasn’t sure if I wanted to share something so personal. However, seeing how often I’m asked about this topic, I thought I would take the open/honest approach from the get-go.

Here we go . . . if you haven’t already heard my struggles, let’s recap: Ryder was not able to breastfeed at all. We saw lactation specialists, sucking specialists, and did everything possible to help him nurse, and nothing worked. We had every feeding/pumping/sucking apparatus you could get (thank the Lord that we also had awesome health insurance back then). Read more

to luxuriate in His goodness

[dropcap style=”font-size: 60px; color: #9b9b9b;”] M[/dropcap]y second born had a fabulous birthday yesterday. He is Mr. Easy Going, and he would have been happy with just his Captain America cake and a Bumblebee Transformer. Yet he also got “The Gruffalo” movie and a few books, and he was happy, happy. I was completely happy to attempt his cake, but I will say that it was a lot of work. I didn’t even own round cake pans, so I was out at 9pm on Wednesday shopping for the right pans. Then I stayed up till 11:30 to make the completely homemade cake (why do I do these things?). And of course, one of the cakes fell apart when I took it out of the pan. I waited till nap time yesterday to tackle the frosting, and it was so hot in our house that the frosting ran everywhere. Big sigh . . . so it was what it was. The perfectionist side of me was embarrassed to show it to anyone. BUT I got two big “OHHHH, Captain America!!” exclamations when the boys saw the cake, so that made it all right. And my husband said it was the best tasting strawberry cake he’d ever had. So that made all of the work and the less than perfect outcome more than good enough for me. Read more

maternity fashion, third trimester, getting ready for baby, & a book recommendation

[dropcap style=”font-size: 60px; color: #9b9b9b;”] B[/dropcap]aby’s approximate due date is 12 weeks from tomorrow!! Sheesh louise and holey moley, where did time go? And why do none of my maternity clothes fit anymore?!

We’ve started the twice monthly midwife check-ups. We’ve got every kind of blood, glucose, whatever lab work stuff scheduled for next week. We’ve also got to schedule in the appointment to speak with the obstetrician and go through all my risks regarding a VBAC birth (even though we’ve been there and done that).  We’ve got child #2’s birthday next week, then child #1’s in 9 weeks, then baby sometime after. And child #1 will be on summer break in two weeks. Yikes ahoy. Read more

HE is

[dropcap style=”font-size: 60px; color: #9b9b9b;”] I [/dropcap] just have to say that I am so glad that this is to be my last pregnancy . . . granted, according to MY planning, it’s our last. This has been a hard one, and I haven’t had any easy pregnancies. So that says a lot. I’m already battling the fear of labor and delivery, and I still have three more months to go! I hate that old devil of fear. I also hate being big and tired and grumpy. There have been differences for me between carrying boys and carrying a girl; the boys being easier. I won’t list what’s been different, but I will say that I have been far more moody with this pregnancy. Sadly. It doesn’t help that this girl is sitting right in my lap, to the point where I can’t sit on the floor, can’t sit on a hard chair, can’t bend over.  So she’s making me a lot more uncomfortable than I usually am by this part of pregnancy. I wish I could give her a good shove and get her to sit higher, but I can’t. Read more

our beautiful girl

[dropcap style=”font-size: 60px; color: #9b9b9b;”] I [/dropcap] think we’re still in shock that we’re having a GIRL! Mark and I find ourselves catching ourselves as we say “she” as it doesn’t totally feel real. We’ve had this girl named for 6 years . . . talk about expected. We have definitely been expecting her. And yesterday, I got the best surprise when a friend of ours dropped off a big bag of clothes for our girl. When I opened it, I found onesies, pants, shoes, sleepers, and even a cute little swimsuit! Everything is in great shape, and it gives us a great base for this baby’s wardrobe. Plus, there was a great selection of pinks, reds, greens, yellows, purples, etc. Such a blessing!! Read more

choosing our thoughts

[dropcap style=”font-size: 60px; color: #9b9b9b;”] Y[/dropcap]esterday, as my boys napped, I tried to nap as well, yet found myself overwhelmed with thoughts of baby girl. So I decided to use that time to study the Word, get my thoughts in order, and get into the flow of peace. And I read several scriptures, but there was one that really stood out to me. And this is a scripture that my dad recited to us over and over when we were young; he was always telling me, his more negative thinking, worrying daughter to dwell on this verse. So I’ve known it for as long as I could remember ~

Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things. Philippians 4:8 NAS

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