Faithful readers of this blog will know that I’ve struggled with contentment while being a mother to little ones. I’d rather do anything than do a zillion loads of laundry, tackle the endless pile of dishes, or draw up meal plans and shopping lists. Yet it has to be done. And I’ve read all the opinions on letting your house be messy while you spend time with your children, how to simplify, tips for managing a busy household, etc. 4.5 years into it, and I’m realizing it’s a learning process. It’s a season of learning what you can live with and what you cannot. Motherhood is a learning process, and it also involves seasons and balance. But one key that I’m figuring out is that the heart of who I am doesn’t change. My kids go through seasons and lots of change, and our family does as well. Yet I can still be me in the midst of all of it.
So for this year, I’ve set some goals, and I’ve accepted some new responsibilities outside of the home. I can do the work from my home and while my kids are asleep, and they are things that I’ve wanted to do for a long time. I feel very excited and encouraged to finally be stepping toward some dreams.
And I was thinking about all of this while I attempted to get the giant mess that is our house into some kind of organized chaos. It dawned on me that I can live in two ways – 1.) frantic, frazzled, stressed, and unhappy because we have mess everywhere, our house needs work, our cars need work, we have no time, my kids our loud and wild, and my heart is drying up because I’m so focused on the loud, chaotic mess. Or 2.) I can quiet down, choose peace, relax, do what I can to manage the mess, to make times for loud and rowdy and times for quiet and still, accept the super busy life but realize it’s not the end, and make heart/dream/intimacy with God time priority when I have my own quiet, still times. Obviously, there’s much more life in option 2. I’ve lived option 1 for a long time, and it’s no good. Been there, done that, and not going back.
So I’ve decided to take this year as a focused year of honing in on what passions God has put in me. I’ve also decided to declutter in every area, which includes how I spend my time, what junk takes up our house, and what things could really use less of my attention. I’m not sure how it will all look or happen, but I feel it strongly. I feel like this is really the year to do so.
This blog has a new look as it will also be re-focused into writing that really draws out scripture, encouragement, spiritual growth, and my own personal passions, such as missions and families in ministry. I wil separate the posts out so that you, as the reader, will know what sort of post it is before diving in. If my passions don’t resemble yours, then no worries, skip on that post. Either way though, I want this place to be on that refreshes, encourages, equips, and stirs up dreams and callings. Life is too short to live life buried in an unhappy mess of laundry and dishes. So I will be singing, dreaming, and praying as I tackle the mundane, every day sorts of things. 🙂
And if you’re needing some encouragement in your own mess; take a look at our daily mess. This is the entryway/living room of our house, and this is a good day! I won’t show you the laundry pile on the other side of the room . . .