I have to be honest and say that this has been a hard week. Yesterday, I just felt like crap. Honest to goodness crap. And I rarely use that word . . . so I emailed a friend that I’ve known since the 3rd grade and asked if I could vent. I already knew that I could vent, so I did. She wrote back in a very patient, understanding way, and she said a lot of things that were quite encouraging. One thing she said made me laugh when I read it, because I couldn’t imagine it being true. She stated how God has me in a certain situation for a reason, and in the long run, I’ll be better for it. My first thought was how on earth could God use this situation? And shortly after receiving her email, I received another email from a friend who knew nothing about how my day was going. And guess what? The word she sent basically confirmed what my other friend had said, but even more than that, the second word dove right into the heart of the issue. It spoke to the thing that’s been bugging me, driving me crazy, and just causing a lot of ugh in my life. For me, it tends to be the underlying issues that get to me more so than the obvious ones. It’s not the situation itself so much as the reason why I’m bugged with the situation . . . if that makes any sense?
I don’t know if I already wrote about this a few months ago, but in the fall, we had a special speaker come to the church. And he was unique in that while he would preach, he’d get a word for someone in the crowd. He’d then pull that person up and speak the word to them. It didn’t happen to everyone, but for some reason, he did get one for me. And what he said to me made no sense to anyone else but me. For it was part of a private conversation that the Lord and I have been having for the past few years. It’s been a private battle that I’ve had internally; one that only my God knows of. Yet I thought He didn’t really know or that He just thought I was failing. I didn’t consider that He’s actually seen every tear, heard every apology, heard every question, and seen my heart on this subject. But He has . . . and the funny thing is that He let me know then. And He hasn’t stopped letting me know. So while I’ve moaned and complained about my current situation and felt that God has just left me to somehow pull myself up with my bootstraps, He’s really been trying to tell me that He is teaching me in the midst of where I’m at. He has not forgotten me, nor have the dreams and visions that He’s given me been buried and done away with long ago. There is a reason and a purpose for where I am at now. This is not wasted time. This is learning time; it’s refining time. So as both friends communicated to me yesterday, God is working in and through my current situation. And I wanted to share the word that my second friend sent as I know it will speak to some of you as well –
(Taken from the daily word published by Summit Christian Center).
“Write the vision and make it plain.” Hab 2:2 NKJV
Your Vision—You Must “Follow” It! (2)
Five times in Genesis chapter thirty-nine we read: “But the Lord was with Joseph.” Be encouraged: God is at work in spite of what you’re going through right now. Where did Joseph get the wisdom to lead a nation? By dealing with his own family problems, by handling Potiphar’s household staff, and by running a prison system. Like rungs on a ladder, each one took him closer to the top. Notice how it worked: his brothers sold him to Ishmaelite slave traders, who sold him to Potiphar, who put him in prison where he met the butler, who introduced him to Pharaoh, who made him prime minister of Egypt, fulfilling his dream. Was it easy? No, “Until the time…came: the word of the Lord tried him” (Ps 105:19). Your vision will be “tried” by situations that either make or break you. Bill Gothard describes this process as the birth of the vision, the death of the vision, and the resurrection of the vision. When you’ve no funds, no friends, and no fight left in you (the death stage), remember the words of Jesus: “Unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies [to self], it produces much grain” (Jn 12:24 NKJV). When your vision dies and God resurrects it, you begin to talk and act differently. With ego subtracted and grace added, you start saying with the Psalmist, “I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living” (Ps 27:13). At that point God smiles and says, “You’re finally getting it right!”