Lately, I’ve been feeling like I talk too much, and it’s kind of a bummer. I’ve worked my whole life at talking more (because I was always being criticized for being quiet), and now I’m realizing that I talk too much. So . . . I’m also realizing that as honest as I am and as much as I love honesty, there’s a point where one can be too honest. Again, by talking too much. And this overwhelming honesty can actually overwhelm people. So . . . I’m not really sure what to do with myself . . .
And that was my random statement for the day as I don’t know what to think let alone what to write about it.
So moving on to a few important items that are really on my heart and mind right now –
1.) The time is now. God’s putting some new things, old things, etc. on my heart right now and asking me “what will you do about them?” Honestly, I’m not sure what to do, but I’m feeling that I need to start taking some faith leaps and see what happens. I need to see if some doors will open if I try to walk through them . . . it’s a scary thought that keeps me up at night.
2.) It’s all about God’s presence. I got the revelation 2 Sundays ago that God doesn’t care what other people think of us, so why do we care? He cares to know if I’m doing what He’s asked. He cares to know if I care more about what He thinks than what others think. And that leads me back to point number one – am I not doing what He’s called me to do because I care too much about what others think??
3.) This life is about faith. We’re to be living in faith daily. We’re to be dependent on Him daily, even hourly, even by the minute. So if I’m not walking in faith, then what am I doing? Again, why am I not taking steps and leaps of faith? If it’s scary, but I have peace and know in my heart that I should do it, then why haven’t I done it?? I’m currently pondering that one . . .
4.) I need to be resting in Him. The only time I ever feel like I’m resting is when I’m in a pool, floating on a raft, taking in the sun, and letting my hand float above the water. (And I haven’t done that in about 10 years.) I’ve been trying to let this picture consume my thoughts when things such as financial worry, parenting worries, anxiety, stress, etc. try to take over. Just picture myself floating in a pool of God’s grace, His love, His mercy, His favor, and His protection.
And that about sums it up.
One last thing . . . I’m going back to being my contently quiet self . . . there’s was nothing wrong with me to begin with. Just took me about 29 years to realize that.